love square.

hey sorry i havent been updating, i'm sick. and well kinda just confused and depressed. i like 3 guys haha, i know sounds slutty. but all of them are really sweet. and their such amazing guys. bad part 2 of them are cousins. and one of the cousins was my ex. the other guy, well he lives in florida. i'm all the way in washington. the state. :/ and the two cousins/one of my exes lives in Cali. i always meet the amazing guys outside my stupid state haha. well, i have mixed emotions for all of that. don't blame me, blame my stupid heart. all of them have some sort of a flirty relationship with me. but, they all seem to have this way of making me get my hopes up and then BOOM! in some way they hurt me. like i dont know mention other girls? well girls they like. or act like they dont seem interested anymore. ughhh. okay, this all seems like im a player. but im so stressed because i dont know who like and who i think i like. maybe they're all just playing with my feelings but one thing i know, is that love sucks. i always get hurt, no matter what. i dont even know. it's hard to explain. i'll just finish up later. :/ have fun peoples.

start on new life

so i went to see a psychologist and basically the reason for my depression and panic attacks and my sensitivity when someone pokes me, is low iron and b12 deficiency. as well as zinc and some other vitamins. so basically what that means is, if i get all of the vitamins i need, whether by drinking vitamin water, or taking prenatal pills, or by other vitamin supplements, which i need all haha. i will be able to handle stress. which means, i can go back to school, have a normal life, go to the 9th grade dance, not stress about homework. and just be normal. plus I'll get a lot more sleep better, i won't be as sensitive to touch or sounds. and I'll be more happier, less depressed and starting a new life. this is everything i hoped for. and this can seriously help me. i can't wait. <333

incase you didn't notice

i suffer from panic attacks, it started in 7th grade. i was diagnosed with depression. i have been on and off school since then. i was in 7th grade till second semester. then i got my panic attacks. from stress, and depression. i was extremely self concious. depressed, scared. i thought my life was over. plus, i was going through a wannabe emo stage haha. i was never one of the "pretty girls" well something happened in 5th grade. everyone just loved to make fun of me because i devoloped faster and because of puberty i gained weight. so, during 7th grade, i could only be in school for half of the year, then all of a sudden i would have major panic attacks and i couldn't go anymore. in 8th grade i went to kalles the gay ass rich, snotty school. and i only stayed in the first month which was september. i was out of school from october-december. i started going to walker highschool in january. there was an 8th grade program there. for kids who had issues/ got exspelled from school. I'm in 9th grade now and i have only been to school on the first day which was Spetember 8th. after that, i couldn't go. my panic attacks got to me. so this whole time my mom thinks i'm biploar because it runs in the family. and that i might have ADD, and i might have thiroid desease. which is the thing that controls your whole body so it makes you gain weight, lose weight. get facial hair, make you have mood swings. and today i went to the doctor, and i might have thiroid and ADD, but he's most positive that i need more vitamins. because vitiamins control your mood, your sensitivity, and stress. so i'm relived it's not something serious like bipolar or something. and i know i'm not alone so if anyone is exeriencing some of the same stuff, feel free to talk to me. i want to help people. and i want to give you hope. because just like me, things will get better.

pimpin out [;

today, i bought a hannah montana wig. i have these over sized sun glasses. and i bought this fake grown chain that says "King Pin" i don't get it. but i look like britney spears as kFed was trying to pinp her out. hell yeah, i'll be crunk fo' halloween. hahaha! <333 i need a crunk cup now. i'll have pictures soon, my camera got tookin away until my mom can pay for it. well, it's my families camera. :/ i want my own. i have already made a christmas list.
christmas list
- sims 2 game for PC
- new camera
- hair straightener
- ipod (like i can afford that)
and i think that's it, i'll add more if i can think of any. haha!

transferring stuff.

so i recently just moved back to the blogs, but i'm getting ready to move back here! i haven't transfered everything up yet, and trying to figure out cutenews is so confusing. i swear my head will blow up, aand i just realized that my new layout looks shitty on firefox. so, if you use firefoz, and the navi looks all weird it's not my fault. it's firefoxes haha. wow, i'm soo tired. i'm gonna go soon. i'll finish updating this week. and i'll have a whole new look for my myspace as well! so check back soon. ;)

comment when using ;)

yeahh, so. if you don't comment, than is basically jock.stealing.pirating.boot legging. theivery.
however you put it, its stealing! so, you better comment. or i will make you feel sorry.